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revelation [Dec. 4th, 2004|03:07 pm]
[mood |highdepressed and smoking]
[music |Miles Davis - "Blue in Green" most beautiful song ever]

ive decided that im tired of always being ready to help someone out when theyre upset, but constantly hiding my own emotions.
i cradle everything up until i just breakdown one night with a bottle...
is letting myself out once every few months by myself alright?
i dont know anymore
every days become the same routine already...
no ones ever there
i miss coming home and rolling into bed with someone i loved
still do
i suppose

man am i really this sad?
or is it just the music doing it to me?
havent played in so long...days....just been knocking on counters until my knuckles are bruised or bleeding...

this music is amazing...nothing makes you feel like miles makes you feel

i dont mean me stupid

well i have to go to work
and do the same thing i did yesterday...

...again


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i dont know [Dec. 2nd, 2004|12:25 am]
[mood |lonelylonely]
[music |listening to how listless silence is before i put on jimi]

whats the point of writing something somebody wont read?
i didnt feel like writing some rambling poem i feel coming on in my head or on paper that will get thrown away, so i guess heres the place...though as much as i do, i dont really want anyone to read it. Feel free, but I doubt you'll get the vast vauge analogies anyway

well, scratch that, i was gonna write depressing crap about how im lonely because i get out of work at midnight and nobody wants to hang out that late cause theyre all bastards, and about how i cant stop thinking about how much i miss seeing amy, but soviet mike is coming over so yaaaaaaay and screw everyone but mike and amy
lol
just kidding
i love you early sleeping school going not hanging out mother fuckers


x is all alone tonight
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surveyery [Nov. 14th, 2004|03:46 pm]
[mood |highcontented]
[music |"Black Dog" - Led Zepplin]

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*So what about YOU???*
Name:Miles
Date of Birth:6/30/87
Astrological sign:cancer
Chinese zodiac sign:rabbit
Do you feel your signs represent who you really are?hmm...maybe cancer...i was a rabbit for halloween though...a samaurai rabbit
Religion/Beliefs:Im a stubborn costic agnostic...i dont believe till its been proven to my eyes
Really believe it, or just following your friends/family?i already told you i dont quiz-demon!
Height:6'2"
Weight:175lbs
Hair color:dirtyish blonde
Hair style:long straight messy
Style of dress:baggy pants, forbidden planet shirt until my days off, in which case its usually a jimi shirt or something
Do you think you're attractive?not really
Why/why not?i dunno...i think guys in general are pretty fuckin ugly
What do you like about your looks?i like watching the muscles shift around in my forearm when i clench it...lol
What do you dislike about your looks?my knees scare me
Do you play any instruments?no, the instrument plays me, im just there
If yes, what?drums...usually traps set but sometimes hand drumming
Are you athletic?sort of
If yes, what sports/activities are you best at?skating, football
Eye color:blue when im angry, green when im happy...seriously they change color...like a mood ring
Shoe size:13...fuckin huge
Are you skinny, fat, or average?average i guess...used to be fat, and before that skinny
Are you happy with that?yes
Do you like yourself?yes
Why/why not?well, if you dont like yourself, how can you expect someone else to?
*Family and its Cruelty*
Father's name:Dan
Mother's name:Ruth
Sibling(s) name(s), if any:Ella
Are your parents still together?yep, only cause they had kids though
Do you get along with your parents?i get along great with my dad...my mom on the other hand...
How about your siblings?i get along great with Ella...
Do you live with your family?i moved back in with them after i broke up with my last girlfriend, so yes
How would you describe your family situation?i go to my dad whenever i want something or need to know something, my mom comes to me when shes angry at something else
Do you want to move out?jesus fucking christ yes i want to move back out
Does your family love each other?i guess that they do despite it all
Any pets?used to have a wonderful dog, now only have this dumb fat shit cat
If yes, what kinds and what about their names?dog: elvis died, cats: leia died, hobbes died, and now its virginia buttons
Have any of your closest relatives died?yeah both grandfathers, and a few close friends have died
If yes, how did you feel?grandfather i just felt sad for my dad, but i was distraught about those two friends...in fact i still dont really talk about one of them because i dont want to be that upset
Do you hold the same political beliefs as your family?basically yes...im slightly more militaristic in my liberal views, but they agree
How about religious?yeah theyre basically both agnostic, but my mom is always flip floppin
Same standards of morality?i suppose so...like treat all women with all the respect in the world, never EVER EVER hit a girl...(unless its sexual and she asks you to of course)...i mean thats about it
*Friends*
Who is the sweetest?amy
Who is the hottest?amy
Who is the cutest?amy
Who is the funniest?joe
Who knows all of your secrets?pheeeee
Who gives the best advice?whittaker
Who will never betray you?phee
Who do you dream the most about?lisa, but lately amy
Who would you die for?ella, phee, my dad, and i guess my mom...and amy
Who will you always keep in contact with?phee
Who is the smartest?phee
Who is the wealthiest?zach T
Who is the most mysterious/secretive?matt
Who is the most sexual?me probably
Who do you want to know more about?danskin
Who is the most musically talented?jonah or matts lyric writing
Who is the best writer?amy
Who dresses the best?amy and soviet
Who is the best singer?grace...that shit is amazing
Who are you fighting with right now?nobody i know of
Who was the last friend you spoke with?phees coming up the stairs now
*Past*
Where were you born?pittsfield mass
List all the places where you have lived.nyc and uhh...nyc...and uhh.....nyc
Which place was the best?LES when i was little
Worst?LES now with the yuppie scum
Were you teased as a child?yeah...i hung out with the few outcast kids...we were cool...lol
If so, why?i was fat and smoked pot amd thought for myself...that makes you a loser in junior high
Were you a bully?no...tried not to be
What did you do for recess?kill the carrier...on cement...its like football but with no rules, every man for himself, and no pads
Were u an early blossomer or late blossomer?if by that you mean my balls dropping, or losing my virginity, i was a pretty early bloomer
Were you in scouts?for all of two minutes
What kinds of things did you bring in for show-and-tell?fuck if i remember...severed heads?
How old were you when you learned about sex?very young, my dad was always honest in how he raised us, not secretive like parents today who then wonder why their kids pregnant...
What about when you started cussing (if you cuss)?wow..i live n new york with my father, so id have to say since day one...in fact im told my first word was "shit."
Did you ever betray a friend to make yourself more popular?fuck no...certainly had it happen to me though
Were you popular or an outcast, or in-between?outcast, then got a lot more friends who were very superficial in high school
Were you ever a cheerleader?hahahahaha, i dont think the pom poms would match my miniskirt...lol
How about karate?yeah took taikwando for a little bit...gonna start taking kendo with my friend masoto soon
Ever been to a psyche hospital?yes
If yes, for what?to visit friends...many many times
How about a regular hospital?oh yeah
If yes, why?ummm letseee....shattered my knee, broke s many bones i cant even count, and had to get major surjery that ill tell someone about if they really really want to know
Did you ever cut?yeah yeah we were all stupid kids once werent we?
If yes, when did you start and why?about 8th or 9th grade...i was depressed and felt lifes little nuances to be short and breathless
Did parents suck?yes
Do they still suck?my dad doesnt anymore
Were you spoiled?hell no i was fucking poor
Did your daddy buy you a car for your 16th birthday?yeah right welcome to new york bitch
Did you ever wreck your car?ummmm....are you dumb?
Have any near-death experiences?almost fell off a roof a couple of times and almost got stabbed
If you could change one thing about your past, what would it be?wouldnt have hung out with some dudes i did
*Love and Relationships*
Are you straight, bi, or gay/lesbian?straight as a hard on
Do you have a bf or gf?gf, its very casual as she says, but id love to see her more often...like outside of work
What is his/her name?amy...amy....amy....amy....amy.........huh? oh sorry must have dozed off there
How long have you been going out?like 2 weeks
Do you love him/her?too early but i could see myself loving her....shes wonderful
Have you ever been heartbroken?yes i certainly have
If yes, who hurt you?none of your damn buisness, but it involves being dumped for another girl
Did you get revenge?what? thats childish
Did that help anything?no of course not
Have you ever REALLY been in love?yes...
If yes, how does love feel?like waking up the day after a week of work and finding everything you could ever want lying next to you wraped in your arms
Lust or Love?lust eting, love will never leave you, even if your loved one does
Have you ever had sex?hahaha....are you joking?
How many times?ummmm....how many different people? or how many times
Is sex necessary in a relationship?yes...i love laying in bed with someone i care about and talking while wrapped in each other more than sex, but you cant have that without first having some good sex...lol
What IS necessary in a relationship?trust
Are you a whore/manwhore?i guess i am a manwhore, but for all the right reasons...
Ever considered being a porn star?show me one guy who hasnt and ill show you a fucking lying sack of organs.
*Describe your perfect Lover*
Hair:brown
Eyes:brown
Height:
Weight:
Body structure:fairly cute
Piercings?not a lot of face piercings
Tattoos?sure why not, but not crazy big ones
What subculture does he/she belong to?i dont care
Does he/she drive?why not...couldt hurt, but doesnt really matter
Sweet?yes
Rebellious?yes
Loud or Quiet?whatever she feels like
Dominant or Submissive?i generally like to be the dominant one but whatever im usually up for anything
Style?whatever, just not crazy dirty
Is he/she more independent or more clingy?both is nice...generally clingy at nigt in bed (and no i dont just mean sex) is better than all day long though
*Have you ever..*
Stayed out all night long?yes
Drank alcohol?yes haha
Gotten drunk?yes
Played strip poker?yes
Was it mixed company?of course
Had a co-ed sleepover?yes
If yes, what happened?ummm....wow
Wrestled anyone of the opposite sex?yeah, but i dont hit girls...unless they ask me to because of purely sexual reasons of course...whatever if thats your thing you know?
Done acid?haha yes...i try to do it now every couple of months to regain sanity
Done shrooms?yes, but acids way more fun
Smoked marijuana?often
Done coke?sometimes...had to stop
Crystal meth?once or twice
Heroine?listen...i tried about every drug i could at tech, aka druggie high, cause i dont think you can talk about something youve never experienced...so yes i sniffed a little twice
Popped pills?some, i think pills are stupid...you dont really know what youre putting in you
Anything else?whatever...k was fun but crazy...id love to do some peyote in the desert with some native americans
Given anyone oral sex?females of course...i love seeing a girl im with getting pleasure way more than getting of myself
Received oral sex?the golden rule, so yes
Tried anal sex?i once went out with a girl who enjoyed it, but not on myself...certainly not my thing
Willing to try anything above that you answered "no" to?i think anal is the only thing i said no to, so no
Ever gotten caught having sex?yes, by my parents in their bed
Ever gotten caught stealing?never got caught
Ever been arrested?yes
Ever dyed your hair?many times
*Future*
What grade are you in now?i took a ged
What is your GPA?fuck man i cut so much school
Do you want to go to college?maybe music college
If yes, which one?look dont make me repeat myself mister questioner
Do you have an idea of your future career?as long as i can play drums it doesnt matter to me
What is it?i said dont make me repeat myself
Where do you want to live when you are older?in my neighborhood in the past
Describe your dream house.a little apartment right the fuck in LES mother fucker
What will you do for fun?play music all the time, smoke pot, be with someone i love
Do you want to get married?i guess so
Do you want kids?maybe, i dont know how good a father id be
How old do you want to live to be?about 40 or 50 tops
Do you want to be famous?i guess
If you do, famous for what?music i guess...id like to be a rock star for a while
Do you think you have a purpose in life?i hope so
What do you think YOUR purpose is?i have no clue
Do you think people will remember you when you die?some people will
If you answered no, that's bullshit.ok
What time is it?3:45 in the afternoon....fuck its early

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garf [Nov. 12th, 2004|12:12 pm]


hmm
i really want to know what amys anwers to the other ones questions are
such curiosity
and also lots of intruige

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heehee [Nov. 11th, 2004|01:27 am]
[mood |rejuvenatedrejuvenated]
[music |Black Sabbath - "War Pigs"]

god
amy is so wonderful...words can't describe
went with her on break today.
amazing how one small part of your day can overshadow the entire rest of it
shes like, so amazing.
Not to say i don't want to, of course I want to, but I feel like I could wait forever to make love to her...

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k [Nov. 4th, 2004|09:31 am]
[mood |sleepysleepy]
[music |"Room Full of Mirrors" The Experience]

cant sleep
thinking of amy
when i do
fire
into me

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ugh [Nov. 3rd, 2004|12:47 pm]
fucking bush for another fucking four years because fucking kerry conceded. I can't fucking believe it.
Now hes going to pick the next four of seven supreme court judges
say goodbye to abortion
say goodbye to gay marriage
say goodbye to the end of the drug war
say heeelooooooo facism!

anyway i hope i see amy today, as that is the only thing that could possibly make this day better
:)

gah there are so many things id like to do to... nevermind, livejournal is a kids website!
lol

happy rioting!
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(no subject) [Oct. 29th, 2004|12:20 am]
[mood |highblatantly happy]
[music |Busdriver - Afterlife Freestyle]

Theres the girl

dont be fooled by how incredibly beautiful she is, shes actually incredibly nice

:)

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wow [Oct. 27th, 2004|12:41 am]
[mood |cheerfulfull of joy]
[music |this wierd good movie called "Everyday People"]

this girl is amazing!
her smile is so lovely and bright...i cant help but become immensley happy as soon as I see it.
her lips...
...well im not even gonna start in on that or ill be going till 4 in the morning

anyway

damn shes incredible

anyway

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soo [Oct. 25th, 2004|10:49 pm]
[mood |highbaked and tired from skating]
[music |WWE with Sidney Bechet in the background]

so based on the conversations ive been having with a certain unnamed angelic beauty named amy(whoops), I decided to watch RAW tonight...and all I can say in summation is:

1. Ric Flair is still a punk bitch

2. Triple H is still annoying as a yuppie in your neighborhood

and 3. Poor Undertaker isn't allowed to get a shot at either of them...

oh well, still nice to watch wrestling...like many memories flooding back...
ahh i can't get this girl off my mind!

anyway

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